New Beginnings

So, here we are. Monday morning, still in pajamas, loud music playing, cat pawing at my thigh trying to get my attention, ubiquitous (in my home, anyway) seltzer water at my side. I should be knitting, but I’m trying to build a website instead. Wait - a website? For my hobby?

I’ve been knitting and crocheting for almost a decade now. It’s been a constant part of my life, and it feels like I’ve always been doing it. I almost don’t know who I am without it. But this last year, it’s felt different. New. And in a lot of ways, it has been. I’ve gotten more serious about designing, and gotten more attention for it than I ever did before. I’ve made friends through our little slices of social media. I got yarn support for the first time. Just last week, I spoke on a Vogue Knitting Live PRISM panel about being queer in fiber arts, something I never thought I’d be invited to do. Perhaps biggest of all, I realized my worth and the worth of my work and started charging a pay-what-you-can model for my patterns.

Different. New. And really, really good.

It feels, for the first time in my life, like I know what I’m meant to do. It calls to me in a way nothing else ever has - not when I thought I wanted to be an actor in high school (ha!), not when I studied computer science and math in college, not even when I dreamt of being a writer all those times throughout my life, mainly when NaNoWriMo hit every year. This is different. I could do this my whole life, and I fully intend to.

Hopefully you’ll all be there with me as I do. I couldn’t do it without y’all. Thank you. Let’s take this journey together, shall we?